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………………….…Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering. I sense much fear in you.
- Master Yoda
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Angel on Ice.
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note to self
04
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Far Away
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……………………………..(dream dream dream dream dream dream…..)
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……….……….so you aim
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……….……….Hide today
………………..Fly away
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……….……….Far from pain
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……….……….……….……….……….……….so you aim
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……….……….……….……….……….……….Hide today
……….……….……….……….……….……….Fly away
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……….……….so you aim
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………………..in your eyes
……….……….Hide today
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………………..Far away
……….……….Far from pain
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……….……….……….……….……….……….so you aim
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……….……….……….……….……….……….Far from pain
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Angel on Ice.
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07
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Destination Known
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……….and as i walked past the valley of shadow of doubt, and leaving my fake plastic cynicism behind, i felt, why not give myself a second chance? i think, here right in front of me, is a real and beautiful beaming light, waiting. will i just let it pass? should i always think that it all will end bad?.. when there’s still some good left that i should at least appreciate and treasured. i thought to myself, the gates of heaven have opened, and there lies before me, an open road to an uncertain happiness. so, should i tarry longer? who knows, i may be moving to the right direction anyway. who knows, out of a 1,000 possible wrong choices, i may have just got this 1 right. and who knows, the gates will be closed again and probably will never be open again.
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……….now i am able to see where i am going. i see my purpose now. my destination made known. it definitely won’t be smooth sailing i know. nothing’s ever perfect. and i know the road ahead will be filled with obstacles, trials and hardships. i will be tested from time to time. well, what was it that is without these? it is all part of life and challenges. but i pray that the Lord will not abandon me, and i will not abandon Him in any time. As time goes by, I will slowly learn to ‘walk’ again; slow but steady; and hope the Lord will give me the courage and strength to pull thru somehow.
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………..the past few days has probably been one of the best i had had so far. it was very sweet and wonderful, that i wish that these moment would stay on forever and never pass.
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………..You given me the confidence, not only to love, but to overcome my fears, doubts, negativity on everything on this world which i placed on my mind for the past years. I use to think that i am only walking with my Lord God in this world, where everything else in this world, i couldn’t care less. but now i felt that maybe i don’t really need to walk alone here longer whilst my Lord watching from above. i can walk with someone. again.
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………..You brought me hope and show me love, where i once given up on; and to see that not everything in this world are as bad as it seems. You have brought me back to earth when i used to walk up in the heavens. You help me to love the world again and restore the things that i left dead and decayed before. You brought me joy that i was able to smile again, and to be able to see the goodness in things where i once dismissed as bad (what i called ‘fake plastic’ cynicism). When i looked into your eyes, I was able to see light, where once things only go with a dark foreboding sense as far as my own eyes can fathom. You make me feel like i want to live rather than to die. You make me want to sing again than to mourn. all this while i am only waiting for an angel to come and take me away. It’s been so forgotten long. but all of sudden there you are. it was worth the wait.
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………..Note to Self: i would like to reiterate, i am not becoming ‘human’ (my old ways) again. i am still the Angel on fire, only with an angel.
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………..i guess i am not flipping the back cover of a book, but rather a start of a new chapter of another life.
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………..thanks for everything, my sweet one. moreover, thanks be to the Lord God Almighty. amen.
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Angel on Fire.
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05
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Destination Unknown
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……….i’m been choking out of air. head feels heavy. there was very little room or space for me to maneuver. dunno what to do. is it all happening all over again? i hope this time it’s not. i need to read the bible from a to z again. i need some guidance. i need some answers from God. been praying every night ever since.
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……….now i’m here again. not sure whether i’m on the right route. but am slowly trying to be able to “walk” again. at the end of the tunnel i couldn’t see anything yet. will there be a light on the other side, or just a void? i just do what i think is right this time. dunno what would be the outcome, or the consequences. i have to live with that. dunno what is wrong with me. i thought i’m stronger this time. maybe as a human i still have that weak part. i have to get thru it somehow. i need to just give it a shot. else i will never ever get any chance.
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………..ok, now i got everything prepared. all is under control. but head still feels heavy. so what now? time is running out. i’m boldly going where no man has ever gone before. or so i say. well, my destination is unknown. dunno what to expect. dunno what is the way like in front of me. are they any signboards to tell me where i’m going? so here am i. treading unknown paths. and all by myself. fully equipped? whatever i decided to do, i will do it now. no matter what the outcome will be. but i’m prepared for the worst. yeah, by right i should be more prepared now. so here am i. dunno what i am about to see or what i am not about to see. what i about to see is what i am going to get. that’s all. i done all i could. i don’t think God wants me to do what i couldn’t do. He’s by my side. right?
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…………throughout this journey many things floated in my mind. some are bad, some are not bad, very little is good. this time, my head doesn’t feel heavy anymore. it’s lighter. perhaps is because that i got everything i need and know what to do. God please help me i pray. Show me the way. Guide me which way i should have be heading. Give me the strength i need to face what’s coming ahead of me. But still, my heart is troubled. i never fell like this for so long. It feels like it’s all coming back again. Is history about to repeats itself? This is the hour i needed you the most oh Lord. I lay down my head, my hands covering my face. I’m waiting for some signs or even just a small voice will do. Ok, now i got an answer: “Why let your hearts be troubled? Seek Me first above all things. and the rest shall be given unto you. Remember this, if things didn’t turn out right, at least you still have Me. now. if things didn’t work out for you, that means I say ‘No.’ Accept it and thank the Lord God Almighty. If things does work out then, that means it’s an ‘Yes’. go ahead. Accept it and thank the Lord God Almighty.”
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………….i felt much easier to breathe after that. thank you Lord.
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Angel on Fire.
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………..After watching both movies that were nominated for Best Picture; Benjamin Button and Slumdog Millionaire, my vote goes to the latter (even if it didn’t win). Best Composer? A.R. Rahman. Well watch the result tomorrow on Astro.
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13
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soon
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………….Did you read last Saturday’s NST EPL Plus centred-page article titled “The 50 WORST Famous Football Fans” compiled by Kaveh Solhekol? It was one of the hilarous articles i’d come across. Not much EPL news had made me laugh this much (though i thought the winner which is Hitler or Osama wasn’t funny at all). Here i want to personally list the 8 BEST “50 Worst Famous Football Fans” based on their comments:
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8. (9) Piers Morgan (Arsenal)
Never miss a chance to tell the world that he loves Arsenal but spolied it all by claiming in his Sunday newspaper column that Arsenal have won precisely nothing since 2004. Not even a Carling bloody Cup. Arsenal won the FA Cup in 2005.
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7. (12) Michael Jackson (Exeter City)
The King of Pop arrived at St James park in a blaze of publicity in 2002 to lecture the locals about world peace and harmony. He did it as a favour for Uri Geller, his spoonbending friend and former Exeter chairman. Exeter were relegated out of the Football League the following season. Jackson has not been back since.
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6. (21) Chris De Burgh (Liverpool)
Annoying warbler who almost single-handedly ruined the Eighties with a love ballad about a lady in a brightly-colored dress. Don’t go to Anfield early unless you want to hear syrup like this pouring out of the PA system… ‘The lady in red is dancing with me, cheek to cheek, There’s nobody here, it’s just you and me, It’s where I want to be, But i hardly know this beauty by my side, I’ll never forget the way you look tonight.’ Pass the sickbag.
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5. (31) Cerys Matthews (Swansea City and Manchester United)
Big-boned Catatonia singer who shrieked Deffrwch Cymru cysglyd gwlad y gan, Dwfn yw’r gwendid bychan yw y fflam creulon yw’r cynhaeaf, per yw’r don daw alaw’r alarch unig yn fy mron, Every day when i wake up i thank the Lord i’m Welsh. Good for you. Next.
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4. (40) Liam Gallagher (Manchester City)
Mad-for-it Manc who loves Manchester so much that he lives in a plush country pad about 200 miles away from his roots, man. Real fan? Definitely maybe.
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3. (39) Noel Gallagher (Manchester City)
(same as his brother)
(Ed: LOL)
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2. (42) Wayne Rooney (Everton)
Not really a celebrity fan, but he is in OK! every week and he grew up supporting Everton. Also used to love wearing his ‘Once a blue, always a blue’ t-shirt at Goodison Park before he jumped at the chance to join Manchester United at the first possible opportunity.
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………….and the winner is…..
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1. (44) Zoe Ball (Manchester United)
TV personality who stopped supporting Liverpool and switched to Manchester United when they started winning things. As you do.
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You shouldn’t be walking alone.
30
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Alex Ferguson part II
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……..Yesterday we saw him (sports front page) bidding “Adios” to Arsenal title hopes before the Chelsea vs Arsenal match-of-the-week. Now, the results: Chelsea 1 - 2 Arsenal.
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..……..Not sure whether Alex Ferguson is retracting his statements now or just stay silent for few days and cowering in one corner (like he usually do), before his big mouth strikes again. Alex Ferguson never learns his lesson…
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Angel on Fire.
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